My Ideal Client is...ME!

Self-centered much, Julie? Bear with me here. My introspection is in service to YOU!

Synchronization between what I say and what you hear is an ongoing exercise in refinement.

We are, after all, connected. We mirror each other. I am creating you. You are creating me. In a way, I can only know you through knowing myself. And the people that I’m here to help will mostly be guided by notes from my own journey.

So in order to understand you better, I sat down to flesh out what I understand about myself - deeper down beneath the business of niche and marketing.

Here’s what emerged…

What do I actually want when I seek out healing, guidance, or mentorship?

Not necessarily physical or mental healing.

Not usually a how-to framework on what to do (like a program or a practice – not even DIY tools like breathwork, tapping, or guided meditation).

What I want is…

A space to vent the top layer off plus a person to support me. I want to be heard and understood. Mostly heard.

A new perspective. I want a new way of seeing my problems and solutions that I hadn’t known about.

Insight into myself that I can’t see for myself.

Access to something bigger, yet more subtle, more energetic & powerful, yet possibly hidden, than what is accessible from my mind or the more typical conventional ways.

Someone who understands things in a way I’ve never heard of before, i.e. ideas that expand my awareness & understanding. And the tools and abilities to bring that new understanding home to myself.

To explore a new consciousness.

To discover powerful capabilities that I have within myself that are rooted in the energetic, unseen, or spirit realms.

Assistance from the spirit realm, angelic realm, and/or ancestral realm.

I want access to a knowing that appears to come from beyond myself.

I want something that transcends the limited way that I know myself and the myopic lens that I see my struggles through.

Someone to give me hope and help lift me out of the hopelessness of being human, caught up in the particular struggles that I have in my life.

Someone to teach me that I’m constructing my life, that I’m choosing these hardships for a reason and that it’s all going to be OK. Knowing that I’m somewhat in control brings enormous relief.

To shift things in my reality that seem impossible to change through mental or physical means alone, i.e. the promise that there’s some other, yet unidentified, way.

Yes, I want to solve my problems, resolve my pains, get greater insights, utilize more of my whole brain and whole being in living and navigating the challenges of my human life.

Which I’ve only just begun to realize is very temporary and just a tiny slice of what defines the entirety of my existence.

The problems I want solved are usually around patterns that I stay stuck in or repeat:

• emotional pain like jealousy of friends or feeling left out;

• feeling like a victim of circumstance;

• feeling burdened;

• money issues;

• feeling defeated or giving up when difficulty strikes;

• confusion about life purpose or direction of work;

• feeling not good enough or not able to help others well enough or not knowing enough to do good work or develop a career;

• ignoring myself or my needs at great expense to my soul thinking I have to or that I’m doing right by others.

So the messaging that draws me in isn’t about a health diagnosis or a business problem.

The marketing that lands with me is about the pain of being flawed and floundering, the mechanism of self-sabotage that keeps me there, and what’s available to me on the other side of moving past my resistance and fear.

But the terror of my own magnificence pushes in from the other direction just as hard.

The great tension of life in all its struggles and glory, is that we desire to both remain solidly in our limited experience and transcend it at the same time.

The amount of courage it takes to move into the knowing of how wonderful I truly am is immense. It’s so much of why I choose over and over to stay in my lowest small self state where I at least am used to navigating reality as a fallible human.

Yet, wanting so badly to transcend that keeps me seeking for more truth, more possibility, and more insight and understanding of what I could be if I allowed it.

All the experiences of my lifetime are what’s between:

“I’m not good enough and I have no value because of all of my flaws and struggles and small-self-ness”

and

“I’m a spirit of light having a human experience. I have infinite awareness, I’m pure love, I’m here to enjoy myself, have even more experiences, expand myself even more, and in turn expand the whole universe. I’m more powerful than can be imagined. I’m truly a magnificent being, beloved by Creator, capable of perpetuating the highest vibrational frequencies.”

And right there in the middle is where shame, guilt, and hopelessness live. If I’m so great, why do I harbor such low feelings of jealousy, anger, despair, suspicion, greed, or frustration at times?

It’s difficult to give myself grace in the face of such heaviness.

And yet, something in me knows there's no wrongness in any of it.

I’ve come here to experience it all.

What would it take to trust that my soul/higher self understands what it’s doing and why it’s doing it this way and that it has a plan?

Similarly, help me understand what you are seeking.

What would you reach out to someone to ask for help with?

Where are the holes in your self-perception?

What would fill you with a great sense of purpose?

What do you long to understand about yourself?

Help me to see where our paths converge and we begin to see ourselves in each other’s journey.

Warmly,

Julie | Awake Woman

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